Give It Away

"There's a river born to be a giver
Keep you warm wont let you shiver
His heart is never gonna wither
Come on everybody time to deliver"

My friend Mari Marks (she plays Sonny Vivian, Dirty Virgin's band manager) is one of my dearest friends. Through her, I've met some of my biggest supporters, Bonnie & Barbara (and ofcourse Mari herself). They are all therapists and believe me, the advice of three therapists has come in handy more often than not during this production. These ladies have become my LA surrogate mothers. I LOVE THEM.

During the last round of production they were super supportive, they listened to my worries and gave me great perspective. A dinner with these three ladies lifts my spirits for months on end.

During the last round of production, I had a hard time coming up with all the money to shoot my film. Mari said to me, "Lucy, sometimes you have to let things go and wait for them to come back to you". I didn't tell her this, but at the time, I thought that advice was full of sh*t. I was in a pretty crummy mood and that type of philosophy was the last thing I needed to hear.

After we wrapped in November, I hibernated for about a month. The filming took a toll on all of us. This was my time to let it go. For the month of December I really put the upcoming shoot out of my mind. I had no money and no way of getting money. At this point I had no choice than to "let go" of my film. I have to admit it, it felt good. For the month of December I did not give any thought to Love Song or anything that had to to with my "career" as a filmmaker.

With my "free" time, I hiked, worked out, spent time with friends and I managed to read; I read scripts and even got to read a book. I bought Scar Tissue by Anthony Kiedis when it first came out in 2004, it took me three years to find time to read it! I loved the book, it gave me an inside into the life of a band that I love. In one of the chapters Anthony talks about what the song "Give It Away" means. The song was based on advice that a friend of theirs gave him when he reached a certain amount of success, (the song Venice Queen is about this friend). Since then, that song has become my mantra. When ever I want something from the universe, I have to give something to the universe.

I'm about to set dates to shoot my film. I gave something to the universe and the universe gave back to me. Today, I am HAPPY.

So the support of my three friends plus the wisdom of Give It Away has gotten me through some rough times. Pursuing your dreams is painful and hard, I'll let you keep you posted on the pay off. I'm sure it'll be worth it.

xoxo,
Lucy